Letting God

So now the nerves begin to bother me... just went to check to see the class lists for my babies... am I prepared to let go again this September? Of both of my little gems? It's amazing how when you think of them being away how angelic they seem and all you can think of is how you'll miss them (even though 3 hours ago I was thinking "ahhh I need a mommy break!") Allowing someone else the chance to spend 7 hours a day with what is MINE. Are they MINE? Is this how God feels about giving these little creatures to us... did He have feelings of apprehension that we might 'mess up' and have them become something different than what He planned? Did He give them to us in joy knowing that we would stumble, fall and keep trying through our many mistakes in child rearing; wanting us to come to Him with every decision, question or concern? Would He rather have kept them safe and sound at Home and raised them right? The thought of having disappointed my Father over and over again is something I struggle with. I will trust that God will once again give us all His amazing Spirit and He will walk us through another long school year... there will be great days and not so great days but the fact that He is always present-that's the peace that this mommy needs right now. As I watch my son play with lego on the floor at my feet creating and changing and using his wonderful imagination give me great pride; hearing my daughter playing with her petshop animals on the other side of the house (yes you an usually hear her before you see her) using the imagination that God has given her makes me smile. They'll be okay. God is their keeper - and I'm glad He is because if I was the "Keeper of the Treasure" I would do a horrible job. I'll step back and allow God to continue to hold them in His very capable hands. Here's to letting go and letting God!